Zan's Picture of Life

Nael is 5!

8:10 AM, May 22, 2008 .. Posted in All About Kiddies .. 8 comments .. Link

I have been longing to write about Nael, his achievements, his milestone, his charm, his attitude towards his baby brother and other gazillion things but my mind is always about thinking of the day to day happenings, the office, the family, the baby, the chores...

I remember a week before I gave birth to Aidan is the most precious moments I have with Nael. we were so closed, we were like one , in a love cacoon , touching, kissing, huggings and I pampered him a lot, knowing that my time with him will be very limited with the new arrival. Each day for that one week, he was with me, we didn't send him over to his nenek's house, I did what every mother does to her kids, wake him up from sleep, drag him to shower, brush teeth, cuci bontot (poo time) , cooked b'fast, then luch hour came, we had lunch outings, bought him cheap toys from 7-11, spent the whole afternoon watching ceria (until i got really sick with ultraman, kampung boy and such), waited for papa to come home from office, dinner, then play and read with him, watched tv until late night, huggie huggie, kissy kissy ...that's what we did everyday for about a week. Then came Aidan, I was happy but at the same time sadness crept up in me when I started to hold the baby, I felt so distant with Nael esp during the confinement. Pity him really, tv was his peer, no one to layan him. As a mother you can feel his lost and the craving for attention, what more when you hold your baby, he demanded to be held exactly like the baby. Sometimes I snapped at him for slamming the door and woke up the baby and me :( He also see less of his papa during that period as papa was really busy in the office, so to compensate for the time lost and also to divert his attention, hubby bought him a playstation :P and a few other toys that were really expensive (which I'm totally against it). So bermulalah cerita Nael with his new addiction....

PSII : oh boy...it's really a boy thingy..small boys, big boys, they are the same, tak mau makan, tak mau tido, tak mau mandi. The funny thing is when you see them fighting over the watchamacalit, remote/joystick, apa2lah..the wars and battles, the roar, the cheers, the jeers, the excitements, the slamming, the thumb cramp, the tired eyes , the aching body was speechless. The first game he played was ultraman and Cars, then came the rest, Spiderman, Tomb Raider, Sonic, Golden Compass, Hot Wheels, Ben10 (the latest) and many more. I can tell you he's really good with them, some games he managed to get to the high level as high as level 7 for spiderman. One thing you hv to bear in mind he can't really read but he can manouvere the menu easy peasy but some instructions, we have to tell and guide him. Another clever note he even thought his papa on some great moves hehehe..sometimes I saw them exchanging ideas, kinda like knowledge sharing hahaha..very cute!

Nael loves his baby brother. Whenever Aidan cries for milk, he would summon me "cepatla mimi, aidan nak nenen nieee, bagila nenen ummi tu.." and he loves saying this when Aidan was abt3-4 mths.."alaaabudak comel nie, senyum pulak dia.." while tickling Aidan's cheek. But now Aidan is 9 mths old,quite aggresive and playful with toys, the big brother somehow has developed "this toy is mine and that's yours" and sometimes "THIS is mine and THAT is mine too". Pity Aidan but we are not going to let it happen anymore, we constantly remind him to share, this is your baby brother, you have to love him, etc...Nevertheless, we can tell that he can't get enough of his baby brother.

Since, he joined C3C in Jan and he's already reading Book 6. He can read page by page in Eng and his word bank is increasing tremendeuosly. Recently we received his math paper and not bad at all with his perfect score for addition, bigger and smaller numbers. Not only that, he even can recite surahs : fatihah, ikhlas, an-nas, al falaq, al-asr, lahab, kafiroon, from his nenek's computer :) Sometimes, he even perform solat on his own reciting surah that he's comfortable with albeit 5 rakaats for Isya' :)

Today is 21st May and it has been 5 years we have him. Thank you Allah for the most precious gift of all : anak2.

Sayang Ummi and papa, Zul Arif Nael : Happy 5th Birthday sayang! Lots of love from us and your baby brother Aidan.

Nael is 5 today!

6:38 AM, May 21, 2008 .. Posted in All About Kiddies .. 1 comments .. Link

Cuti cuti mesia

8:28 AM, May 15, 2008 .. 10 comments .. Link

Whoaaa...2nd entry in a row...can u tell from here? Zan is....

OK ok kita kena cepat...nie hujung bulan nie dah start cuti skolah dan seperti biasa ramailah yg nak naik pelamin. Itu termasuklah sepupu saya and bertandang part will be at Sg Petani. We, zan n brood bersama suku sakat yg lain will be there end of May..alamak baru teringat tak apply cuti lagi :P

So nak tanya, what's there in Sg Petani? We'll be there for 2 nights and highly likely we will not drive to Penang , sungguh memenatkan (although teramatlah dekatnya)...so we decided to have a very laid back holiday...tapi apa nak buat ya selain terjun hotel's pool and attend kenduri kawin? I heard there is a water park in sg Petani..what else to check out? any famous amos foodies that we can check out??

Anddd...on the way back, we'll be spending 1 night at Bukit Merah. I think the kiddos will have a blast there. Anak2 jer yg seronok kan, mak bapak nak buat apa yer? makan2 jer lah kot :P

Let's story mory

4:16 AM, May 15, 2008 .. 13 comments .. Link

May month is always the happening month, think about it maybe is the 2nd best month of the year (read : retail therapy) which comes after December (where you get bonus and more than 3 public holidays) and May month too is always the most pokai month of the year. I have 6 birthday and 2 mother's day gift to scout and also my year end of renewing road tax and insurance. Thank god the road tax has reduced and the amount for insurance after NCB deductions is manageable *pheeww* estimating around 500+ yay!!

What else did I buy this month? Yes oh yes..I bought foodies from
Ishoppeville, milkmaid tea, some teething biscuits and bear biscuits for the kiddos. Puan Olab is kind enough to pass the stuff to my dear hubby and my little boy has another flavor for him to munch, thanks auntie Olab :) Review saya akan buat kemudian ya.

On Mother's day, Rafiqah from CMOG, too delivered newspaper print which was long overdue and finally I got to see them and touch them. They are awesome, very neat, chantek sekali! If you guys wants a personalised gifts, visit cmog. I think I have purchased mine way back in 2003 with personalised books but the latest is for my parents anniversary of 45 years :) It was well arranged and we keep on sending back and forth to check on the contents/spelling, etc, so basically I have no qualms on the delay but all excited and so touched when I see the final product. Wait till you see the pic and need I to say more, my parents melelehlaa air mata :) Memang puas hati!!!

I have been longing to share you a story about mother baby bonding. I have a gf of C and she gave birth to a girl. From time to time we have small talk and smses, more of me giving her some advises. So after a few months, she has to get back to work and I sent her an email asking how's things and her baby. Her reply was kind of unexpected..she says things are ok, she manage to go out and catch some movies with hubby and leave her daugther with her maid. Her maid seems to be able to take care of her daughter but when she picks her up, her daughter will cry and always think the maid is the mummy :( She also said this "my daugther sleeps with my maid and since I'm going back to work soon, I can't afford to wake up at night, i'll be too sleepy. So, i'll just play only with baby ******"

Ohh gosshh...i was fuming mad but the choice is yours and I didn't reply her email. Even if I do reply, it will not be a pleasant or decent content to read. This story reminds me of another one I encounter when I have to attend a day training after a month of coming back to work. I had this C lady as the instructor and since I'm the only female attendee, we exchanged stories on motherhood. She too has a baby girl whom only a few months older than Aidan. She was complaning that she has to stop pumping when her baby is 4 mth and sais this as well " why ah everytime i carry her she will cry, cry and cry, she prefers her babysitter than me.." Rupa2 makcik tu hantar anak kat babysitter for the whole week and only weekends jer jumpa. Duhhh!!! Rasa nak marah jer!

Ok enough said, let's celebrate mother's day everyday and only 'true' mothers who know what real mothers, SAHM or not have to go through deserve this wish "Happy Mother's Day".

Missing you...

1:43 AM, March 27, 2008 .. Posted in All About Me .. 12 comments .. Link

It's you ..you .. and you...

You hear me right.. :(

I was so bogged down with work. One my servers has been acting up on me..and I have some other issues as well that need my attention :( poor poor thing, my schedule was hay wired and the worst part was answering to customers..yikes! (famygirl must say...phewww lucky me -> how i envy you woman)

On the other hand, my boss is coming back...uhh la la la..am expecting more time surfing in april ..yes yes..that is in another weeks' time ;)

Apa cete you all yer...tak sabo nak baca!

A quick round tanya khabar...

rotidua = dah sihatkah awak? dah habis pantang?
aliya & olab = apa cete anak2?
elisa = must catch up on your trips
famy = tak nampak entry pun..?
oo = what's the latest menu and crossstitch
LD = ehh dengar dah beranak..i tot in april
beelove = ada good news? ;)
cik chomey = banyak berangan yer... :)
mosh = hemm..what's cooking?
ehh lollies = smlm sempat baca ur power suits...lawak sesgt!

terukkan saya nie...takde masa nak pie make bloghop, tanya khabar kat sini jer laa...

ttyl.

Hari ini...

6:40 AM, February 26, 2008 .. Posted in All About Family .. 16 comments .. Link

Hari ini saya terasa saya nak menceceh. Nak menceceh pasal banyak benda tapi saya tak tahu saya boleh speed type secepat yang otak saya katakan.

Saya nak menceceh pasal b'feeding. Anak saya tak tumbuh gigi lagi tapi dia suka beno tarik2 itu *tut*, geram betul, picit2 hidung dia tapi gelak macam org tua, yelah takde gigilah katakan, senyum nampak gusi saja. Nasib baik saya teringat pesan makcik Gart suruh letak minyak gamat..memang ajaib, 2 mlm jer dah baik dah luka2 dan nipple crack tuh. Dulu masa confinement pakai purelan selama 2 bulan pun tak jalan! Semalam saya dah mula ganti puasa yg saya tinggal masa ramadan tahun lalu...ada lagi 29 hari! mak aiiii..banyaknya. Pastukan saya nak cete skit, saya simpan susu kat ofis orang, buat muka tak malu ding dong ding dong ofis customer, pastu buat muka tak malu, pinjam fridge diaorg, pastu jalan ke another end, pinjam sinki basuh pump. Setiap hari saya keluar masuk 2 kali, pagi dan ptg. Kadang2 ditakdirkan berjumpa dengan org2 tua lelaki yg miang dan tak senonoh. Bila jumpa muka saya, ada jer suara2 sumbang "susu dah dtg....." "oh stock u dah hilang...i dah ambik" euwwwww..., pastu ada hati tambah komen "buat utk hilangkan pening". That's an INSULT! dan banyak lagi yg tak larat saya nak cakap. Nasib baik 2-3 org jer yg mental, kalau ramai lagi mmg saya malas nak masuk ofis diaorg tu.

Hari nie saya nak menceceh pasal mak bapak budak yg tak senonoh. Ini dah lama saya nak cerita cuma kadang2 lupa. Saya dan anak2 bersama2 dengan hubby pergi ou, old wing dekat2 dgn laks@ sh@ck, nak pie print gambar2 yg dah lama terperap kat portable disk. So, saya pun tinggalkan anak2 dengan hubby dan jalan laju2 pergi fot0kem, dah tiba masa nak collect print out. Dah selesai saya jalan pergi jumpa anak2. Nael tengah ride Barney car sementara hubby pegang Aidan. Datang 1 couple (C) dengan anak yang kecik skit dari Nael, merengek2 kat bapak dia nak naik Barney car. Lantas bapak dia terus cakap kuat2 kat kami berdua "your son wants to ride or not ah?"dgn marah2.."put in the coins lah!!" saya memang terkejut badak dan hubby pun sudah mula nak nak tunjuk belang but still in compose manner "let him play for a while..". Pastu bapak budak tu terus cakap "f**k y0u" :O Ada jugak parents yg macam nie yer...Apparently, hubby cakap, Nael baru jer naik Barney in less than 1 minute, then they came. Yang teruk tu, langsung tak nak menunggu and he swore in front all of us. So, you can imagine how he raise his kid :( kesian...

Hari nie saya nak menceceh pasal org2 tua yg ada pelbagai penyakit tapi buat2 takde sakit dan tak nak makan ubat. Bapa saya adalah salah seorang dari tu. Dia walaupun makan ubat konsisten, tapi bila kaki bengkang, perut kembung, muka puffy still dia kata dia ok. Geram jugak kita dibuatnya. Banyak jugak yg saya kenal, ada yg tak makan ubat on time, tak nak makan pun ada. Macam mana yer kita nak cakap dengan mereka2 ini? Masuk telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri. Kita nie concern, takut jadik apa2. Kalau nak diikutkan saya yg tak berapa reti pasal medical nie, bila bapak saya kata OK, kita pun ingatkan OK laa...nasib baik abang saya intervene cepat2, bawak pie hospital prevet, rupa2nya jantung bengkak, dah masuk kat paru2. That was 2 weeks ago and at the same time makcik saya meninggal dunia due to heart attack. Jadiknya 2 weeks back mmg saya emo..emo sesangat, takut apa2 jadik kat bapak saya. pergi kerja tapi nangis2 kat laptop..lantakla apa budak2 kat sini nak cakap. Satu lagi, alhamdulillah Tuhan panjangkan umur dan alhamdulillah jugak for my bro's early intervention, dia laa yg buat call sana sini, arrangekan appointment..kalau nak harapkan saya dan kakak saya, mmg kitaorg nie blur2 esp kakak saya yg workaholic tu. Pengajarannya : anyone at anytime boleh pergi, jaga kesihatan, love and show your parents u care for them and it's an advantage to have a doc in a family. *wink* to adik2 yg kat melbourne tu :)

Esok saya nak sambung menceceh, if time permits, insyallah.

Aidan - 6 months old

5:42 AM, February 14, 2008 .. Posted in All About Kiddies .. 9 comments .. Link

Today 14th of February marked 6th month Aidan has been with us, syukur alhamdulillah and also it has been 6 months to date that I have been providing him with mother's milk..yay to breastfeeding, I have survived this far :) *phew*. Only 5 days ago he started his first solid food, that was pureed banana and cooked red apple. He loved it so much, it's either the taste or he thinks he finally has something to chew on but me thinks probably the former and oh boy, he also good at spitting. Let's see, what he has achieved so far. He can be on his side by 2mths, on the tummy by 3rd month, he hates to be on his back. Whenever we put him on the matress, he has to lift his head and my hubby thinks he's already showing the love of exercising, that is stomach crunching :P.

He loves to be seated with us supporting his back by 4 mth and still doing it till now (unsupported for a longer period). Whenever he's tired or restless, he asked to lift him and let him stand on his 2 strong feet, most of the time he will jump excitedly with his drooling saliva. One thing that is so noticeable is that he loves rubbing his 2 feet..me thinks it's so cute, he will do it mostly when he's excited or curious with what he sees. Above all, the most significantly entertaining is to see his sweettt smile and hear his thunderous laughter, that's our boy..Aidan *muahs*

Random ramblings

6:36 AM, February 6, 2008 .. 6 comments .. Link

Olab asked "how come I didn't update?" and the reason I gave, it was more of this blog host : slow connection, inaccessible...but the truth is I feel very distant..macam takde mood gitu...when I have stuff to write, I have no time to even jot down as a draft..suffice to say my blogging time is very limited during office hours,after office hours is a big no no..

Did I tell you this? I miss most of you...sorry for not diligently reading all your entries..can't keep up with the alert but I'm hopeful that I can catch up with you girls :(

In the meantime, my so call home project is compiling all write ups about the kids esp Nael, rearranging pictures and hopefully I have time to do a small documentary (in video form) for Nael's upcoming birthday. He's going to be 5 this May and I'm hoping that my other half can sponsor a birthday get together party for him together with his cousin or maybe with some close friends. When I look at the stuff I have...goshh so banyak and so clutter :( esp on the videos. I have to crack my head on how to segmentized, regrouping all the videos plus the labelling. Tak buat lagi pun dah pening errkkk :P For those of you who diligently been doing all this, kindly share some tips on how you keep and tidy them up, the pics/videos/handphones/blogs, etc...that would be great, thanks!

Btw, since this eeeefffxxxx nie kadangkala membuat ragam, saya dah berhajat untuk berpindah ke blogsp0t yg telah lama kutinggalkan...but basically more on family affairs...di sini hanya utk random ramblings saje.

Take care you all...gong xi gong xi...

p/s: Nael asyik nanyi lagu gong xi gong xi ..nie mesti belajar dari skolah!

His Big Day

3:11 AM, January 9, 2008 .. 10 comments .. Link

On the 3rd January 2008, I took half day off just to be with my lovey dovey grown up boy, Nael for his 1st day of school. Not big school though. Remember an incident last year, June 2007 where he was punched by his classmate (too bad I can't refer to my archive). After that gory mory incident, we took him out from K@fa and as expected Nael was very delighted with the idea of not going to school anymore. Basically we were very upset with the principal in how she handled the case plus other things as well which I should not dwell much about them, needless to say, my respect was pulled to a lower scale. In last 6 mths, Nael was confined at home, he was very traumatized esp when you mention about school. Need I say more, he hated school *shudder*. In December, we made up our mind to register him at C3C kindy which is nearby to my mother in law's house, paid everything and we even brought him tour the school. Can you imagine, when were at the school's doorstep, Nael was very shaky and asked to be carried? That show how much he was terrified with 'school'.

So, last week, moi and my other half escorted him to the school, with his oversized uniform, dia buat muka monyok. I had talked to his teacher and briefly explained Nael's character and she assured me everything will be A OK *legaaa*. We stood outside the classroom and from time to time we peeked in, guess what we saw? Nael gave a thumb up HAHAHA....The whole class had an orientation ie: computer room kat mana, toilet mana, sinki mana, swimming pool mana, they had a break with snack and my shy boy even ate 4 biskut lemak!! and rounds of orange juice :P By 10:30am we were at home and this boy of mine can't stop talking about his new school. Yay!! *ummi very the lega*

On 7th Jan, again we sent him to the kindy just to ensure he's comfortable enough with his new environment. Macam tak percaya jer, Nael followed the teacher's instruction well and today he even called my mobile and menceceh how clever he is to be able to write numbers from 1 to 10 hehehe.... Oh yess...he even told me "ka cau (Kah Chau) cried, kesian diaaaa..." amboiiii!!

I just hope and pray that he will enjoy more of his time with his new friends at this new kindy and put all the ugly scenes and unhappy state behind.

I am so doomed!

9:09 AM, December 28, 2007 .. 9 comments .. Link

*inhaleeeeee exhaleeee* i dunno where to start. byk sgt nak bagitau tapi selalu end up mind blogging saje. this is more of luahan hati and as usual i need your ears/ shoulder whichever you all can offer that can comfort me in one way or the other. 1st of all hati nie rasa tak tenang, or maybe i shall say rasa sedih dan sayu. maybe it's not a big deal to some but to me it means a lot. actually it's about my work....i think no one except famy who knows what exactly which contributes so much of mind boggling with our so called career (or for her ex-career). as some of you have known, i hv the same job description with famy : we are in manage services industry, 100% customer base offering our tecnhical skills in hostings except for one thing that is different, we tackle different platform. So basically we are quite well verse and understand each other day to day frustration more than other people. We have been talking about quiting...errr actually I think I was more vocal and some sort of letting everyone knows that I wanna quit from this job hehehe...Not to be SAHM but to change industry, I'm the kind who gets really bored with mundane work and panicky even with small issues. When I was in confinement, I got this "urgent" SMS from famy telling abt her retirement. I was so shocked..all the while I have been thinking of leaving the company end of 2007 and voila famy is soon to leave :( i didn't really 'entertain' the content as I was busy with the new baby but when I came to work on the 1st day, I felt sooooo lonely..it's like suddenly you do not have any friends..friends that you can really share your hapiness and sadness. Yes, I still have another lunch buddy Mdm Y but she is my customer, she's not in the same league. Rasa mcm patah sebelah kaki! and on that 1st day of work, remember i had logistic problem for my pumping session, that added to my low morale, baby-speration-anxiety, feeling lost, sadness and whateveyeous mode I was having. From that day onward, the urge of quitting is stronger and shall I say out loud, the feeling of waking up and dressing up for work is hell! Setiap hari rasa sedih nak pie ofis, tak bermotivasi langsung!

Yesterday, i was even more upset. My boss is quiting and his last day is next Monday!!!. Sedih ya amat!!!. Let me tell you what I really dislike about my job...1st, we have to respond for any issues, tak kira siang malam, weekend or public holidays in certain time frame, basically you don;t have a peaceful life. Once you take up the issue (meaning you are working to solve it), customers and management are really at your back which sometimes kind of menyakitkan hati dan tak faham2 ker aku tgh kerja nie :P, then the worst part that I have to deal, is the post portem phase and let me tell you, I'm so unfortunate to have sordid customers whom eventually loves to throw condescending words. All the while my boss has been my saviour, he can take shit from them unlike me, I will get very very upset, moody, cranky and there goes my day. Kesian kat anak2 and kesian to moi also, kang tak semena mena aku boleh dpt HBP *dang*. If he goes, you do the math. If you think I have been working for so long, and I should have been very good at this. Oh well, let me tell you, I can say that I'm of course doing better in the technical work but managing the customer part, it's a pain in the ass! I realize this too late :(

Sometimes I feel like quiting my job and do nothing, sometimes I feel I need to have the ME money. I'm so puzzle...I guess I need to pray harder and hopefully Allah swt will show some guidance on what's the best for me...mudah2an, amin!

Pray with me okay and thank you for reading this. I felt a lot better :)

Selamat Hari Raya AIdil Adha

4:03 AM, December 19, 2007 .. Posted in All About Me .. 1 comments .. Link

no mood laa nak update..sunyi jer ofis nie, jalan raya pun dah start lengang :( ..Just got back from L@ngkawi last week, overall it was fun, a bit tiring though but worth it :) Shall update you in my next entry, tungguuuu...

Anyways, would like to take this oppurtunity to wish all of you Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha. Since I missed out a post on Eid Mubarak, thought this time around I would ask for forgiveness from all of you. Mintak maaf dari zan atas segala kesalahan, lebih2 lagi terkasar bahasa especially masa commenting your blog or replying your comments on mine and also any of my write up since my Modblog days that I have hurt you in one way or the other, please please accept my apology. Ohh lagi satu, kalau terkurang bayar ker masa gatehring hari tu, mintak halallah yer Mosh hehehe. I guess that's about it.

Semoga dengan kedatangan hari yg mulia ini, kita semua akan lebih mendalami penghayatan korban, insyallah, a reminder to myself lebih2 lagi.

Hello world...

5:10 AM, December 4, 2007 .. 14 comments .. Link

Just wanna share with all of you, addition to ZAN family : Zul Aidan Naez.

(Mind the sizing, nak cepat nih)

He's so tiny

Curious on looker-big brother

His little fingers

He has BM jaundice

Brothers bonding session, tengah cete pasal ultraman 3

Sayang betul adik dia :)

Start to plump up

Thank you auntie Ery, Ummi loves putting on this pj on me

My 2 love hearts, honey bun, cutie pie *sigh*

Boleh tolong?

4:14 AM, December 3, 2007 .. 10 comments .. Link

Boleh tolong tak rakan2 sekalian?

Macam mana nak retrieve balik my old postings kat efx dulu? Appreciate sangat2 if anyone of you (lollies?, mosh? whoeverlah yg free) yang boleh guide me how to get my old postings or anyone yg boleh tolong write to web admin, Keith?

Many many many thanks in advance.

Count your blessings

5:28 AM, November 28, 2007 .. Posted in All About Me .. 11 comments .. Link

Am not sure in what state I am..first n foremost, I'm tired..really really really tired. Next I'm not too sure why I'm feeling so grumpy..the kids are not well since last week, they have bouts of cough, feverish and even Aidan already starting to show he's gonna get that running nose. With the sound of "kong kong kong" every night, Ummi is sleep deprive. I think I just got a little overboard, being mad at my other half for not listening to me earlier. He has been having thisirritation cough and did not even bother to see a doctor, instead, he only took some off shelf medication and been consuming for about a mth. Whaddayaknow...the kids now have it, even my helper got it too. To think that I'm the only one who has been doing a lot ( taking good care of myself, the kids and other gazellion things) and simply due to this in house virus has got my life totally wrecked, is not fair at all. This morning, at the breakfast table, I just sat down, took a deep breath and started counting on my blessings. I always wanted to have more kids and smack hard on the head, they do come in a package. Apa laa sangat batuk, demam dan selsema when other parents' children suffer a lot worse...I think I just need to take things a bit lighter and enjoy life more, I should say "I love you" more to the other half and appreciate all his hard work in the office, rather than showing off my mencuka attitude. I should even hug more and kissy kissy my boys rather than to yell "Nael, don't do this..don't do that" kind of thing. I should also count my blessing on my work, sure I'm not too happy about it but at least I'm employed. Besides, I have a helper whom I can really rely on. She's so loving towards my kids and in time like this (the not so healthy kiddos) I know my boys are in good hands. Perfect it may sound..guess I have to work on it, life is all about making it, happy or not.

p/s: did u get to watch j0n n k@te, + 8? The mother is what i call superwoman. Handling 2 6 yrs old and 6 2 yrs old? uhh *shudder*

The elderly

8:42 AM, November 19, 2007 .. Posted in All About Family .. 2 comments .. Link

This entry was saved as draft earlier and I was on EL last 2 days and manage to continue today.

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Off late I have been getting not so good news about some other people...mainly my friends' parents and some even my own parents. I think 3 weeks ago, my hubby's boss's father fell in toilet and bed ridden, then his father in law passed away. He was with him during morning walk, he just collapsed and the root cause apparently due to his heart stop breathing. Then I came back to office and learnt about my own boss's father in law fell in toilet and had stroke and now bed ridden too. His own father also is not well and so he is away in his kampung to attend to his family matters.

This morning, I opened up my ex housemate's multip1y and learned about her mother passed away last Saturday morning. Reading her post made teary eyed..I know her mum and she felt so helpless when she couldn't be by her mother's side. One year ago, my another ex housemate too lost her mother and another post by Lollies about Mosh's father too made me really sad.

Ohh gosh..thinking about death sometimes make you so helpless and how mortal we are human beings. I have been thinking a lot on this since Ramadhan when my own mak fell in the toilet. No one was in the house except for mak, myself, both my kids and my niece. She fell and no one knew and at that time I was in my room attending to baby Aidan. My niece finally heard her soft call and came rushing to me and I just sprint to her bathroom leaving baby Aidan in a rocker. My heart skipped many many beats and I had tight chest when I saw her lying down on the floor and all I could remember that time, I asked her to istighfar. My left hand which held her head was full of blood and I was numb, I panicked and I can't think straight. Called my brother but he did not pick up his hp and I scream and screamed to my niece asking her to call my SIL's house. Alhamdulillah, minutes later my brother arrived and syukur that night he wasn't at his clinic with his patients. She was cared by my brother and SIL and to cut things short, I thought I have lost her and that night I couldn't sleep thinking of the "What if...?"

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cont...(22nd Nov)

Inna lillah wa inna ilaihirojiun..al fatehah to mosh's dad..I hope he can be strong during this testing time, semoga rohnya ditempatkan bersama org2 yg beriman. Amin! I just read Mosh's entry about his dad's operation and I found similarities with my dad. My own bapak also is always up and about everyday, jogging, run errands : market, banks, do his masjid treasurer stuff, potong rumput, picking up grandchildren and the list goes on...Sometimes when you think he is so healthy at 69, another day it can be otherwise. He is now diagnose with heart problem *sob sob sob*...

I'm feeling so sappy..takde mood nak continue. Love your parents and show them that you love and care for them. Life is short, it might be them or you who will be called upon the almighty..be nice to everyone and always count your blessings.

b00bs & b'feeding

8:37 AM, November 15, 2007 .. 13 comments .. Link

Gee I'm left about 15 mins to leave office...Before I gave birth to baby Aidan, I was quite sceptical about myself whether I can b'feed Aidan exclusively. I bought a good pump and also small containers that cost quite a bomb. But when thinking of the ROI, it's uncomparable and so during the end of 2 mth leave, I was really tested, whether to keep on b'feeding or start to mix with formula. My only weakness is lazy and 'do not know how to pump, store and stock up'. Hence so many calls were made to some friends including famygirl. I badly needed encouragement especially during Raya time visitings, I kept on getting remarks like, "tak akan cukup tu...", "tahan lama ker susu simpan mcm tu?", "budak tak puas minum kalau susu sikit macam tu..." referring to a few 8oz bottles that I have expressed. I was so tested and so bengang tahap gaban but I persevered. I started aggresively pumping during the last 10 days before starting working and a day before work, I managed to stock up around 60oz in freezer. Then another test, during 1st day of work, I was so kelam kabut with all the timing, logistics and such and I only managed to pump 4oz only! Sedih giler! I have to call famy.. uhuk uhuk.

I think by now I already get the hang of it, you just need to be relax and it will be free flow hahaha...Today is the largest volume I have expressed 10oz yayyyy!!!

I think I begin to like b'feeding, not that I did not b'feed Nael, I mean exclusive...I keep on watching my diet, I even digilently taking supplements, multi vit, omega 3 and calcium and dari tak rajin minum air, aku boleh pulun berbotol2 air sehari hehehe...The downside of it isssss....tidoq tak cukup ler and this baby Aidan really really really lovesss suckling, sakit badan dibuatnya. Only thing I need to learn quick is how to b'feed in public unnoticeble (sp?) and how to even out the size of my precious b00bs..te he he...shhhh! Any ideas ladies??

at last!

8:29 AM, November 9, 2007 .. 10 comments .. Link

ehh..apa nak tulis yek...dulu masa takde login, mcm2 benda nak tulis, skang nie mcm mental block lah pulak...

my dearest fan...chewahh..ingatlagi ker korang kat aku nie....makcik nie tersangatlah busy dik non...ingatkan masa pantang bolehlah blog..berangan jer lebih...anak dah 2, pastu soma2 benda aku kena buat, dukung baby, basuh bontot si kecik dan si besar, mandi, bagi makan, b'feed dan segala tok nenek aku kena buat, manalah ada masa...lagi pulak kat rumah mak mmg takde broadband. Udah ler tido2 ayam jer masa 2 bulan tu..baby Aidan nie light sleeper, tak pernah kita tido more than 4 hrs huhuhu...tak larat you, cepat makcik hilang lelemak2 yg kubina masa pregnant tu..alhamdulillah.

maid kita pun dah dtg..itu pun lambat sampai, lebih kurang 5 hari sebelum masuk kerja. itu yg kita kelam kelibut tu, mana rumah mcm tongkang pecah, habuk jgn cakaplah tebal gile, pastu kena ajar dia macam2...itupun kita try to slow down skit dgn dia..yelah dah dia pun umur dah lanjut ..tua...minggu nie masuk keje, kita pun briefing lah sama dia, botol nie utk syampoo, botol nie utk mandi, botol nie utk minyak rambut, tiub nie utk bontot baby, tiub nie utk leher baby, tiub nie utk muka baby..."bibik faham?" dia ckp "FAHAM"...lepas 2 hari aku tanya balik...dia dah lumurkan badan anak aku dgn syampu rambut, cream bontot letak kat leher, muka baby...wallahualam. kesian baby Aidan dari kulit mulus dah jadik bertepek merah2..huwaaa sabor jer makcik, dik non.

tadi baru jumpa famy girl...tak puas nak sembang dgn dia..hopes to see her more..mcm banyak jer nak cete kat dia :)

kita nak balik lah..hari nie acting utk boss..apalagi chow lerr...

see you all soon, hope to blog hop all you lovey dovey mommies n daddy(mosh lah tu) muahss!!

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